Sigh, why do I binge ?
I don't know why I binge, but I think I somehow know why. LOL.
After such a massive binge ( I just had one like, few minutes ago D: ) I feel so angry, so frustrated with myself. Like I can't do anything, I can't stop myself. I feel useless.
and then I'll start thinking of going on a diet and then after a couple of weeks I'll binge again. Like a HUGE HUGE HUGE binge. and then my stomach feels so pain and bloated but yet I can't do anything.
I hate that feeling of "I can't do anything". It just makes you feel so, sad and mad.
I don't know why I just keep thinking about food. like "what shall I eat after I wake up?" , "what shall I eat when I end school?" , "what shall I eat when I end work?"
it's like there is NOTHING else on my mind EXCEPT FOOD.
I feel like I've fucked up my life.
I don't know what to do.
After such a massive binge ( I just had one like, few minutes ago D: ) I feel so angry, so frustrated with myself. Like I can't do anything, I can't stop myself. I feel useless.
and then I'll start thinking of going on a diet and then after a couple of weeks I'll binge again. Like a HUGE HUGE HUGE binge. and then my stomach feels so pain and bloated but yet I can't do anything.
I hate that feeling of "I can't do anything". It just makes you feel so, sad and mad.
I don't know why I just keep thinking about food. like "what shall I eat after I wake up?" , "what shall I eat when I end school?" , "what shall I eat when I end work?"
it's like there is NOTHING else on my mind EXCEPT FOOD.
I feel like I've fucked up my life.
I don't know what to do.
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